Letting It Go

October 13, 2007

I couldn’t hold it in any longer.

Luckily, Auntie Lizi, the head mother, gave me the freedom and space to just cry this evening. I expressed to her my sadness for leaving and just how much I loved them all. She agreed with me when I told her that I could not go face the girls right now, because they would know that I had been crying.

So, I had a good cry.

Then I wiped the tears off my face and headed to the dining room area. The dining room area is a multipurpose room. For example, they eat all of their meals there, they dance there and then last night they had mass there. It’s a true multipurpose room.

I guess one of the last volunteers bought them a very old television set. It gets three channels, usually the news or some time of soap opera that is dubbed in English. We watched two this evening, one from Telemundo and the other a Chinese soap opera of some sort. It is quite entertaining and the girls seem to love it.

I was able to get through my evening because my Winnie hopped on to my lap and we snuggled on the plastic lawn chairs for close to two hours. She fell asleep in my arms and all was right in my Kenyan world.

It’s amazing how tough she is on the outside, but when you get right down to it, all she wants is to be loved. I can do that for her. I feel blessed that she has allowed me into her heart and has trusted me with it.

I hope she understands that she has my heart too.

3 Responses to “Letting It Go”

  1. Ines said

    When I read through your journal it makes me wonder how many volunteers these girls have seen and how many times they have gotten close and even learned to love someone that’s helps them for a few days.

    I also think that this time it will be different because you won’t just “leave” them, but will be active in making their lives better.

  2. You have changed Winnie’s life and she yours. I am sure she knows you care for her. You have changed the world by giving of yourself so deeply and sincerely. Beautiful.

  3. You have changed Winnie’s life and she yours. I am sure she knows you care for her. You have changed the world by giving of yourself so deeply and sincerely. Beautiful.

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